I think
Without being reminded constantly about what I take for granted, I selfishly continue my life oblivious to how lucky I really am.
There was a lady I saw the other day. She was having trouble walking with a limp. I couldn’t help but feel like a completely greedy selfish spoiled idiot. She was having trouble walking. And when she’s at her home, trying to walk around without ease, I’m at home getting pissed off because I can’t find something interesting on tv or because my internet went out.
I want stuff that I don’t need and I worry about stuff that don’t mean anything while there are people everywhere so much lesser off than I am.
I am completely aware of this.
But I don’t change.
I feel like I don’t deserve any of what I get. When there’s people out there struggling to just survive, why do I get video games and shoes and swimming pools and myspace?
A lot of people believe in karma. But what did I do to deserve all the good I get? Or, what did starving children do to deserve starvation? I don’t believe Paris Hilton led too good of a life to deserve fame and fortune.
Something I want to ask is, if someone cuts you off on the road, or makes you mad enough that you curse at them, flip them off, or do whatever, would you do the same if you knew somehow that they just lost a close family member earlier that day or were just diagnosed with a terminal illness? It’s easy to curse at someone I don’t know, but if I knew that their best friend just passed away, I probably wouldn’t. The next time I want to tell someone off, I should probably consider that maybe they’re having the worst day of their life and anything more will kill them.
